Logan O’Connor is back on the ice for the Avalanche, but the hardest part of his season has nothing to do with hockey.
He returned to Colorado’s lineup on Oct. 23 after missing the first 10 games of the year, healthy enough to play but still carrying the weight of a sudden loss. O’Connor’s father died on Oct. 6 at 59, leaving the 30-year-old forward dealing with grief while trying to settle back into the rhythm of the season.
That bond ran deep. O’Connor’s father was a defenseman who played collegiate hockey at the University of Michigan and appeared in 43 regular-season NHL games with the New Jersey Devils and Mighty Ducks of Anaheim. Hockey was part of their connection, and O’Connor made clear how much that absence still hits him before and after games.
“It’s the reason I play because he was my hero. I wanted to be just like him.
During the game, in a weird way, you feel close, but also so far away from him. After every game, I’d call him.
So that absence is felt especially hard when I’m playing before and after games,” O’Connor said. “I find that’s when your mind’s sort of racing a little more about the bond and connection we had over hockey, and that was what a lot of our conversations were about.
And so during the game, try to just focus on what’s at hand. But it obviously creeps into my mind consistently throughout as well.
I’ve definitely found the after game is where it’s been the toughest for me.”
He spoke to the media after practice at Family Sports on Nov. 6, and the conversation carried a heaviness that went well beyond the usual post-practice routine. O’Connor said he could have stepped away much longer, but chose to return to the game sooner because it gave him something familiar to lean on.
“I could have taken three months, to be honest. I think it was right for me to just sort of get my mind away from it, focus on something that I love, playing the game.
That’s what bonded us,” O’Connor said. “I was in Calgary for a while, and those were terrible, hard days and tired days.
Grief brings a lot of physical exhaustion, mental exhaustion. That’s probably been the hardest thing.
But had to just balance what I felt was right. He wouldn’t want me to dwell on it too much.”
The Avalanche forward also pointed to the support around him inside the locker room. Even if his teammates can’t fully understand what he’s going through, he said they’ve made an effort to help him carry it.
“They’ve been great throughout the whole time. Not many of them exactly know what I’m going through, but they’ve been super understanding of the process and trying to take my mind off things,” O’Connor said. “Every guy texting me when it was happening and super supportive along the way, in doing whatever they can to help throughout the process.”
There are no easy fixes for losing a parent. The void stays.
The routine changes. The calls stop.
For O’Connor, getting back to the game he loves is part of learning how to move forward while keeping his father close in the only way he can now.
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