What would you give up to live the dream you chased as a kid?
Rob Morris has spent enough time with that question to know the answer has changed. The former BYU star and Super Bowl champion used to say he’d do it all again, no matter the cost. Now, with his 18th surgery looming, he’s not so quick to say yes.
“When people ask, ‘If you could do it all over again, would you do it?’ I’ve always said, ‘Yes!’”
Morris told the “Y’s Guys” livestream show this week. “Lately, I’ve questioned that.”
That’s a different voice from the one fans remember from his playing days, when the linebacker known as “Freight Train” looked built to run through walls. Morris, now 51, has been forced into a new reality after double-bypass surgery just over two years ago changed the way he eats and exercises. The 6-foot-2, 243-pound frame that once powered his rise at BYU and into the first round of the 2000 NFL draft is gone.
So is the old way of thinking.
Still, Morris doesn’t talk like someone who regrets the ride. He grew up in Nampa, Idaho, loving football, and that childhood dream eventually turned real.
He played for the Nampa Bulldogs, then BYU, then Indianapolis. On Feb. 4, 2007, he started Super Bowl XLI and helped beat Chicago 29-17.
“It was amazing. It’s the pinnacle.
It’s the dream,” he said. “I was thinking the other day, how many people grow up as little kids - we all have a dream, right?
How many people actually get (to live) that dream that they had? I don’t think it’s a lot and I got that.”
Even now, after all the pain, the surgeries and the scars, Morris says the game was worth it. He just would have approached it differently.
“If I knew the toll it was going to have on me, I would have focused so much more on the relationships that I built and the experiences that I had,” he said. “Football has taken a fair amount, but it has given me so much.”
The cost became impossible to ignore after the Super Bowl run. Morris signed a new contract with the Colts and opened the title defense with eight solo tackles in a 41-10 win over the Saints on Thursday night. Indianapolis then beat the Titans 22-20 and the Texans 30-24 before a meeting with the Broncos on CBS.
That’s where everything unraveled.
“I was flying high and playing great and I blew my knee out and was carted off and never returned,” Morris said. “My life fell apart. I struggled with mental health stuff, physical stuff and divorce.”
Getting back from that kind of break is not a straight line. For Morris, part of the recovery has come through speaking openly about what he went through. He says sharing the story has helped him make sense of it.
“I think I was forced to look at that. People would say, ‘You are so resilient’ and I would think, ‘I feel crazy.
I feel completely broken.’ I started to take a deep dive (into) the concept of resilience, and somebody asked me to come speak and they paid me for it,” he said.
“I’ve found that to share those stories helps me a lot.
“It puts a voice to my struggles and then people come up and say, ‘Thank you. I struggle with that or my husband has struggled with that.’ It’s been rewarding.”
That openness fits the same guy who once made a living crashing into people for a living. Morris says he’s learned that the highs and lows belong in the same conversation.
“It’s cool to talk about the highs and the lows and how they go together,” he said. “Nobody is on a 20-year winning streak.
That’s what I’m realizing. It’s been an interesting change of pace to go this route.”
His BYU story started on offense. He arrived as a running back, then LaVell Edwards pulled him aside during practice and changed everything.
“LaVell rolled up in a golf cart one day and asked me to sit and he said, ‘Rob, if you stay at running back, you will be a good college player. But if you move to linebacker, you will play on Sunday,’ and that was it,” Morris said. “That was the last time I was on offense.”
The move worked. Morris became one of BYU’s defining defenders, and he likes what he sees from this year’s Cougars, who are No. 10 and 3-0 as they prepare for TCU on Saturday in Fort Worth (5 p.m. MDT, ESPN).
“They are built in the image of their head coach,” he said. “They are not flashy.
It’s just a solid group. This is what you notice about BYU.
There are a lot of (NFL) linebackers that have come out of BYU.”
Even now, Morris can’t resist a little humor about how his place in school history looks these days. He believes he belongs in the conversation with the best linebackers the program has ever produced, though he says the rankings keep sliding.
“Every once in a while, I will go on ChatGPT and ask, ‘Who are the greatest linebackers in BYU history?’ and I’m going lower and lower,” he laughed.
“I think I was down at four or five the last time. I said, ‘C’mon!
Give me a break!’”
The nickname that followed him through college came from a simple line he gave a reporter: he wanted his hits to feel like “a freight train hitting a Yugo.” BYU fans embraced it, and marketing ran with it, handing out thousands of wooden train whistles at LaVell Edwards Stadium.
The whistles are still around. So is the name. But the man behind it is looking at life differently now, with another surgery ahead and a steadier perspective than the one he had when he was flying around the field.
For Morris, the freight train has slowed down. The work now is getting his own life back on track - and helping other people recover when theirs goes off the rails.
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